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Coming of age??!!

2005-09-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

Am currently sitting at Macdonalds Marine Parade.. time is 10.45pm.. dun feel like going home.. Went early for my IPPT today for the purpose to be released early.. and i managed to go off before 7pm.. went home for a shower and looking forward for a nice kopi sessions.. ask my buddy out and had dinner at Whampoa Market..my fav market!! then la teh for a while till my buddy call for a stop at 9pm!! wat??!! i was like huh?? r u serious?? is this wat i call coming of age??!! i was like can't be wat.. me still dun want to go home so early leh.. haiz.. but i also cannot force ppl to keep me company rite??

Called my colleague to see whether she wants to la kopi.. but din pick up call, so i like ok, nvm.. i go marine parade mac to sit down and surf net lor.. midway before reaching she reply back... haha... too late, i dun want to turn back liao, so here am i updating my blog at marine parade.. wat better place to sit down and do my own things while enjoying the breeze, nice ambience and yes, nice songs!! this will become my fav hangout.. ALONE!! haha.. sound so anti-social.. heck lah..

had chances to go out with my buddy in navy recently.. also manage to go bowling sessions with my colleagues.. so a lot of social activities this week.. less today.. all alone.. keke.. but sometimes, it's nice that i have some private time on my own.. can think better.. come to think of it, i'm rather fortunate fellow till now.. have a good career for now.. no worries on money.. and juz enjoying my life the way i want it .. how good can it get?? but i dun think i want to be complacent.. if i have to move on to progress. i will lor.. so hope life will only get better and better.. and i also hope for the same for all my good frens..

well.. i think so far among my peers i'm the above average liao.. cannot complain too much.. else later i kenna "hamtam" .. haha

anyway, now is rather difficult to update my blog.. sooooo many ppl MSN me.. haha.. ok ok .. will write more next time.. till then, god bless.. cheers

Hoping for better future..

2005-09-11T01:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. it's juz another lazy sunday for me.. well i took a good sleep of more than 10hrs today..my first long sleep after maybe 20days?? well, been working really late hours these days with the works I had in the dreaded fab at ST Micro.. yesterday i was supposed to go in again, but i chose to act stupid and not waste my weekend in the stupid fab at least for this weekend..

Anyway, was contemplating ard 4pm to sleep or work on an on-going issues in ST micro, but ended up surfing the net and clearing my mails.. haha.. so stumble upon the blog of a few frens. as i have not been writing for a while, i tot y not write another one today as i'm relaxing in my air-conditioned bedroom cosying up in my bed. haha.. dun sound like wat a man my age will do.. but heck, i do wat i like to do.. keke..

had applied for a trainee dealer job yesterday nite with one finance firm and hope i can hear something from them.. been trying to get into finance market but kinda difficult for someone of engineering background like me.. nevertheless, i really tot i like to give it a shot before i hit the big 30 2yrs later.. I'm juz hoping for one of the firms that i've applied to to give me a chance even if the pay is low.. i'm juz getting a bit vexed at the things i'm doing now.. the job pays well... but juz dat i dun feel i'm cut out for engineering .. ppl can claimed i'm doing really well, y shld i quit.. well, i can only say if u feel u can do more, y not try harder?? i need to always challenge myself to noe where are my limits, else i will be like a lost lamb in a herd, always juz follows along.. nah.. dats y i need to move on if i feel something is missing..

the feeling of changing to another job came to me more strongly these days because i've quite a few colleagues who r leaving or planning to leave the company.. it kinda saddens me that they r leaving.. but come to think of it, they r leaving to pursue a better future, we shld be happy for them.. so really want to wish them well and thank them for those memorable times working together.. guys, hope u noe who u r.. ;)

at the same time, i had a senior colleagues of mine who was quite closed to me telling me he was contemplating of quitting by next feb.. haiz.. seems like those ppl who worked in the company for more than 5yrs r leaving. think they know that they have already reached the limit in my company and time to move on.. but the prob here is once he leave, there will be juz 3 of us in the team running the show... with 4ppl, we r working like dogs.. cannot imagine one less.. sigh.. think i really need to start looking ard actively..dun want to stress myself out too much when there's not even a decent pay increase!! *angry*

well.. nevertheless, life has been well so far.. i'm beginning to take things easier and hope i can stay on like this till i find another new job.. prefereably not in my current field anymore.. need a change of environment.. haha.. so any fund managers who's willing to give me a chance, i will work my ass out for u!! anyone out there whose hearing me??!! *praying* hard for my saviour..

ok ok.. so frens out there, no matter wat u r doing now, move on if u think u need a change.. else, persevere and u never noe some angel will drop upon u and give u a chance.. fat hope though. *pout*.. keke.. ok lah.. juz work hard and smart and u will be rewarded.. have faith and cheers..

@ a fren's wedding last nite

2005-07-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

Well, it's a sunday again and yes, I'm back at home..my 2nd consective sunday at home.. not going anywhere again..maybe i'm beginning to get used to staying at home on weekends.juz too lazy to move abt anymore, or am i getting old?? well.. no matter wat, i do kind of like staying at home.. so hope i can stay like this ..

was at one of my ex-Navy colleagues wedding. Saw a lot of my ex-colleagues and was really glad to catch up with the lot.. had some really fond memories of working together.. those were the days and u began to feel we r all getting old.. also met up one of my ex-colleagues who I've lost touch with due to the fact that he got into big trouble while he was still in navy.. thereafter, he juz kept his distance from us.. was really happy to see him well and up to the good old days.. in actual fact, he's working outside like i am now .. we were talking happily and he was mentioning he heard how well i was doing out there etc.. but i was juz glad to see him picking himself up again and facing life positively like before.. in fact, i juz felt i'm nothing compared to him as he had faced much more adversities than i did last time.. so i really admire him for his courage.. in life, there's always a lesson to learn every now and then.. and this is one which i will really look up to and learn from.. Isaac, u've my utmost respect..

on the other hand, it was kind of a sad day too as seems like i also lost a fren.. saw that's ex-navy colleague of mine who was rather closed to me during those times in service.. we din talk much or rather i din try to talk to him.. he was with his wife.. and in fact, i know his wife quite well.. his wife even introduce her best friend to me before.. trying to matchmake us.. haha.. well, that's the past.. but guess it was the monetary issues which distance us.. well.. he borrowed money fr me before .. and he had problems paying back.. in fact, this is the root of the problem.. and relationship starts to strain.. moral of the story, dun let money gets in between friends.. well, it's ok.. anyway, i din try to make the effort to strike up a conversation in the beginning.. so who else can i blame as i would feel they would find it awkward to talk to me too. . well, dats life for us.. so ironical.. wanted to keep a fren but always holding back till they r gone .. not regretting actually.. juz felt pity that things got to end this way..

was at the wedding also wondering will i ever get married like my ex-colleagues yesterday?? everything was juz so nice and beautiful .. and everyone feeling happy for the couple.. when ppl asked me abt my situation, i have nothing to update to them other than my work.. relationship-wise, i would say a big FAT ZERO.. i juz dun noe wat am i doing.. but maybe god is testing me.. well.. nevertheless, i dun think i want to worry so much for now.. if it's not meant to be mine, then move on .. at least i can be happy with wat i have i.e my work for now.. still hav my food in front of me everyday is more important..

haha.. guess i've whined enuff today.. so till next time, u guys take care.. cheers

Got poke at today!! so must write today!!

2005-07-17T00:42:00.000-07:00

Hi all,

haha.. wat a way to start.. seems like writing company mails.. been so busy with my work that i've forgotten how to write my blog.. now i even have reservation on how to post my pictures.. been a complete workaholic for the past few months.. but somehow, today and yesterday has been staying at home to laze ard.. and can u imagine?? it's saturday and sunday?? !!

woke up at 1pm today and really amazed by how long i can sleep.. haha.. tot want to have breakfast with my mum this morning, in the end, it was my mum who bought me lunch.. so pai sey.. so after lunch.. linger ard and saw Bubbs online.. started chatting and she poked at me saying "when did i last wrote my blog".. i was like.. grrrrhh.. so i told her i will WRITE today!! haha.. using her as an excuse to start writing.. not beri nice.. pai sey.. then again, i've been really wanting to start writing again.. juz dat too tired after work and never quite felt there's anything to update.. but frankly, i think it's been a whole half a yr since my last blog.. there must be some things..

so juz a recap.. eh.. i've came back from taiwan in feb, then started working in singapore again.. for 2mths thereafter, it's been quite relaxing till i got to transfer accounts to another fab in singapore.. so got to go America for training again.. so in May, i went back to San Francisco.. for a month long training, on our company vintage machines.. to me, it was a downgrade rather than an upgrade as all guys are working on new machines while i'm going back to old ones.. sigh.. that's the life in semiconductor industry.. u r like a ball being kick ard all the time.. but kind of enjoy america this time as i managed to go more places this time and meet more ppl.. been to Lake Tahoe the 2nd time rd.. then to Yosemite... and climb the mountain behind my hotel twice.. well.. i shld say nice experience .. esp waking up early morning 6am and going for a jog alone at 10 degrees was really shiok!! but the real motive is to make sure i do not gain weight this time round from my america trip.. haha.. i can tell u the food there sucks big time and so expensive!!... but u still have to eat .. so no choice.. was thinking of opening up a Prata shop there if there's a chance.. it will make flour into gold man.. i paid USD3 for a kosong prata!! but no choice.. got craving.. sigh.. and u shld really see the queue there.. and the prata was like so normal lor.. haiz.. must really think of something soon.. so any investor??!!

anyway, i came back in June and starting working in my new account.. and boy.. got a culture shock.. the ppl there in the fab really rely too much on us to help them repair and maintain the machines.. so end up, there's not much time to do other admin stuffs than juz soak ourselves in the fab helping our customer do stupid things.. sigh.. this went on for 3 weeks of torturing nite shifts.. i was beginning to think "die lah.. how to get out of this shit" .. and ppl was telling me once u get into this account, it will be tough to get out.. and all of a sudden, when i was out on saturday nite, one of my senior colleague called.. asking me whether i'm interested to join their team doing regional technical support. i was like "HUH??!!"" u can't be joking with me rite?? i've only been in the company for 1yrs 3mths and the team of 4 was like on average 5yrs of experience in the company.. well.. nonetheless, after that colleague of mine asked me " Dun tell me you want to work in ST micro account meh?" it struck me really hard.. so heck, i juz apply and see how lor.. the best thing is the change took juz 3days and no interview needed.. i was sort of immediately changed to another account.. so talk abt being like a ball.. so i was being kick to another account now.. haha.. then again, all these was actually decided by the management, so i was juz glad to be out .. at least i dun have to do those sucky nite shift works anymore.. in fact, it was like a small promotion for me.. or rather a big one in everyone's eyes in my company..

so here i am, working hard again on my new job scope .. dun noe how long i will last here, as i'm seriously thinking of switching line next yr.. juz for the experience sake before i hit 30 and no more market value.. in fact, i really like my present job to be my retirement job.. juz tot i need one more shot to make it big.. else i will be back and hopefully my current job allows me to be back.. being an engineer will always be kind of stable.. but not much of hype to talk abt.. juz normal routine and hard works.. at this stage, i juz tot i need some extra spices.. so i hope i can really take the step out by next yr.. becoming 28 yrs old has really pushes me to think twice .. thinking that i do not want to regret abt not trying hard enuff when i was young once i grow old.. so dats y i wanted very much to switch to something completely different from wat i'm doing now.. so guys, wish me luck!!

well.. enuff said.. at least i started to write something today FINALLY.. so Bubbs.. i promised i will write, so no chance for u to poke at me now.. haha.. juz joking lah.. till next time .. dun noe when.. keke.. cheers!!

wish for a chance to live another kind of life..

2004-11-28T04:09:00.000-08:00

well.. it's my 5th week in Taiwan now.. another 3weeks to go back home again.. then again, i'm not excited abt going back neither am i happy to stay here.. seems like there's no place for me now in this world.. the fact that i will be back here in taiwan on the 4th Jan explained my life now.. it's all abt leaving my place and being independent.. sometimes, too independent dat it turns lonely.. with no one understanding u, it makes things even worst..

i guess depression is coming in again.. afraid of being lonely...i've being doing things alone alot lately.. beginning to feel i'm the only person left in my circle of friends.. beginning to wonder why am i here for??

went to watch Alexander the Great alone today.. while i was buying the tickets, the cashier lady was asking for two?? i was like, in my mind thinking i really wish.. but wat can i do abt it? anyway, while watching the movie, scenes in there keep saying "being great is lonely".. tot alot abt this sentence.. i am, though not as great.. at the same time, there also this sentence which says "to the the best that you can be is arrogance".. am i getting arrogant?? i really dun noe.. maybe i am also.. but isn't that what we all live for?? to live the best out of our live... dats wat i'm trying to do.. but it makes me a really boring person.. i'm beginning to wonder who will like such a guy like me?? then again, love can be the most beautiful thing in life at the same time cruel.. prefer not to think too much as it is driving me crazy..

and talking abt love.. brings me to Christianity.. as much as i try to be compassionate abt other religions.. i'm beginning to feel this is the only religion which corrupts ppl's mind.. too much freedom in love and too much forgiving gave ppl the feeling dat no matter wat wrongs they did, they will be forgive by HIM.. hahahah.. this is a big joke.. u r responsible for wat u did.. and ppl juz cannot understand.. even this folly religion.. i'm sorry.. but after so many happened, i juz can't help but feel this way.. sorry for anyone in this religion.. though i noe all are not bad, but majority of them r blinded by such imaginary love by HIM..

People.. time to wake up.. fr ur own foolishness and be responsible for ur own actions.. i juz hate to feel ppl r stupid .. but being hurt so many times, i juz couldn't change my mind abt this at all.. i juz hope one day ppl will be able to think wisely again.. it's getting worst and worst in this world.. i really rather choose another life than to suffer all these nonsense.. but life is all abt sufferings.. dats wat my teaching had taught me.. and if i can withstand these sufferings, i will not need to lead such life again.. hope i will be enlighten soon but definitely not by HIM as i can do it on my own.. to all my friends, hope u will understand..

signing off...

2004-11-06T08:50:00.000-08:00

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Back in Taiwan and listening to YoYoMa

2004-11-06T07:51:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since i last wrote..shld i say it's nearly a month ago?? well, i'm back in Taiwan again.. been back for nearly 2weeks already. went back home for 8days before coming back to support due to the request of my Taiwanese manager.. first thing i did when i came back to Taiwan was to buy myself a decent speaker with subwoofer so that i can enjoy my evening every nite.. indeed, i've been enjoying my music everyday since the day i came. work has been ok.. not as hectic as before, but i've been trying to find the energy to be enthusiatic abt my job again.. seems dat i'm losing steam and i'm definitely trying to get some inspirations from somewhere...

Today i went out to buy the new YoYoMa's album on Ennio Morricone. Basically a soundtrack album.. but then again, YoYoMa never fails to impress me with the way he play his Cello.. I shld say this yr has been a very fruitful year for me in terms of my encounter with YoYoMa's music. First and foremost, I went to his concert at the Explanade which I've been waiting for 3yrs.. it's was really a superlative performance.. every cent paid for the concert was worth it and it was a really very sincere and powerful performance from this very cheerful musician. his charisma is unparallel among all the musicians i've watched before.. his music are ever so powerful, touching and straight from the heart. Then when i was in taiwan, due to the fact that he's a Taiwanese by origin, alot of his albums are available here and i managed to grab hold of 3 albums which he produced this yr.. which is really a lot considering he's a pure classical musician.. with very little commercial scent in his music... dats wat i like from him.. he never produced music to please the general public.. but rather he makes music so sincere dat ppl will naturally be pull towards him..

coincidently, i was in my hotel room whole evening and accidently saw his interview on TV. First time hearing him speak mandarin.. haha.. sounds really wierd.. then again, being born in France and raised in US, that's only naturally.. but at least he put in effort to speak his native language that will put a lot of chinese ppl ard the world in shame.. especially Singaporeans.. haha..

in his interview, he spoke abt a lot of things.. all so very inspiring.. like the music.. he plays the way he wants to convey what the composers wants to bring out.. he plays to convey the feelings of the past people, their sorrows, happiness and way of life.. he plays to link the past with present, different ethnic groups, different people and countries.. in his saying, there's no boundaries in music, and there shld not be any discriminations.. he do not play music with the thought that he's the best.. he play becoz he wants to understand the world, he wants to move on to a greater plains in life.. not for fame, not for money but purely a happy inner self. He never fail to smile during his performance.. and in his interview, he said once his very good friend Bobby McFerrin, musician cum vocalist told him he wanted to perform to bring out the child in everyone. That's why YoYoMa said he wanted to be immature and be a child.. that's when u r at the purest and carefree... that is how i feel u will remain to be cheerful in life also..

Then again, he also mentioned that there are too many problems in the world as of now.. but we all suffer.. but we have to accept this is a learning phase .. (i was beginning to wonder if YoYoMa is a Buddhist in the first place.. hahaha.. sounds so inspiring like when Dalai La Ma speaks) so when we r unhappy, he hope his music will be able to release our frustrations in life.. helps us to relax in life.. and maybe bring us some happiness after listening to his music... That i fully agreed with him as his music never failed to touch me.. sometimes, being alone is really lonely.. somehow listening to his music in the nite soothe my feelings..

Come to think of it again, Lynne was the one who introduce YoYo Ma to me in the first place listening to Six Suites by Bach. Ever since we've been enjoying most of the albums which YoYoMa churned out and last but not least the last performance in Singapore. It juz give me a very serene feelings when i think of enjoying such wonderful music with her.. i juz hope one day Lynne will fully understand life is not juz abt frustrations, misunderstandings, mistreatments, prejudices and hatred.. but it's also abt love.. love for being alife.. love for having such wonderful world in the first place and love for music.. i really feel music really adds alot of humane factor into my life and i rather be blind than be deaf if given a choice and this is the best thing that is given to me by God.. Music.. then again, i might be prejudice on wat kind of music.. definitely not those heavy metals or disco music.. but YoYoMa's music is all inspiring.. I hope for all friends who are looking into my blog do spare some time to sit down and listen to his music when u r free.. to me, it's juz pure divine.. and i hope it will do the same to u all.. feel his love for not juz music but the world.. and let there be love in this world ..

Schatz, i hope u r listening and understanding love can be outlast everything..

signing off with lots of love and inspirations from my favourite musician.. take care guys..

2004-10-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

more nite markets..!!! life is nice in taiwan especially when u have this nite markets happening everyday of the week in Tainan.. will surely miss these times in Taiwan

Last week in Taiwan.. probably...

2004-10-11T01:13:00.000-07:00

Well well, it's been more than a week since i last wrote.. but i shld really say it's a long week for me.. having gastric problems for the past 3 days.. still feel like puking .. no appetite for anything other food.. now basically i'm eating for the sake of eating.. i hate this feeling.. ever since i missed my breakfast and lunch on last Saturday in view of getting my machine installation done, i've been in agony.. guess life as a service engineer is not nice afterall esp when u r alone in a foreign country, working almost alone everytime.. sigh.. it really sucks.. then again, it might be the feeling of going back home soon and facing all problems back at home, it juz gave me a bad feeling.. one side of me tells me i need to go back.. another side of me tells me not.. i'm at a crossroad.. sigh...maybe dats y my gastric couldn't go away at all.. damn.. wats wrong with me?? i'm always good at work.. but when it comes to handling people, i'm juz a complete FAILURE.. sigh...

today is declared a holiday for my company in Taiwan as yesterday was Taiwan National day.. so they make it up on today.. but dat does not give me any chance to really relax.. juz finished typing my installation report at 6am this morning.. finally handed up my final report and will take a little breather now.. but then again after writing this blog, i will most likely need to do some online web-based training i've previously registered a month ago.. hahaha.. have been procrastinating on the training.. since today is a bit free, i will pack up my bag then go out for a small walk before i hit the training, else my boss will kill me if i dun something abt those course soon.. hahaha.. then again, i think i've done quite a lot over the past 6mths, so my bosses (both in Taiwan and Singapore) have been rather happy to let me take a break for a while.. actually, i've been contemplating of transferring to Taiwan to work for a yr or two. I've been asked here, but i'm still considering.. due to the fact i will get a pay cut as pay here in Taiwan is not as good as back in Singapore.. but living expenses here r really low, so we cannot compare.. still i believe if i am to come to Taiwan to work, i will still be getting above average pay.. it's not really an issue.. still considering.. will wait till i go back home this week and see how it goes before deciding..but i guess my Singapore boss will definitely not be very happy with this idea.. hahaha

yesterday i went out in the evening alone to the night market.. yes, alone again... hahaha.. it's really weird.. seeing all the people with their family, bf or gf, all seems really happy at the night market.. with the weather being so nice last night, having a hot meal under the cold weather really is a good experience that we'll never get back at home.. i will definitely miss this atmosphere once i'm back in Singapore.. took some pictures for rememberance as u guys can see above, it's really a nice place to be at .. Taiwan as a whole is really a nice country.. nice people, simple life..nothing extravagant and people are easily contented.. not like ME especially.. i really dun noe how to make myself contented.. maybe i've always been demanding of myself.. maybe i've asked too much out of myself... i really tot of taking a backseat in life at times, but guess it's my character.. maybe inherited from my Dad.. come to think of it, if my Dad is still ard, i might not need to be this strong a character anymore... at least i will hav an advisor to guide me in life.. Dad, how i really wish u r still ard.. ..... but it's juz not meant to be.. nevertheless, being a buddhist, i believe if there's a next life, Dad, i will still want to be your son.. coz, u've taught me well even when u left me when i was 14yrs old. u've taught me to be independent.. u've taught me too much .. and ur loving care to us will always be remembered... but then again, i really wish u can be ard so that i dun have such a big responsibilities to carry with me now.. sigh... maybe Dad will be able to advise me in my dreams.. i hope ....

ok.. think i've been talking too much.. time to get back to reality.. so will be getting ready to go back home.. looking forward to catch up with friends after 2 long months.. a lot of catch up indeed and hope all r well.. i sincerely hope so and will also like to apologise to those friends of mine for not keeping in touch so very often.. Cheers everyone and see u soon.. Take care...

2004-10-11T01:00:00.000-07:00

hahaha..shld this be censored?!! eh... but dats wat ppl r selling at the night markets. Lingeries.. and not juz one stall but at least 6 to 7 of them!! and gals still buy it.. very different culture..

2004-10-11T00:53:00.000-07:00

"Hua Yuan" Night Market!! my favourite destination during my stay here..

2004-10-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

hahaha.. my NT2000 (approx. $100) hairstyle done here in Taiwan. my whole year expense on haircut.. how i bear to do it?? well, beats me too..=\

Time to relax for the weekend...

2004-10-02T10:49:00.000-07:00

At Japanese Charcoal BBQ restaurant.. really good food.. y aren't we getting it in Singapore?? maybe i shld open one in Singapore.. hahaha

Well well.. it's been a while dat i last wrote.. but as usual, on the weekdays, i'm always bz with works in the fab.. no chance to even take a breather... but the past 2 days was an exception as my Chin Hooi, my younger colleague fr Singapore is going back home first.. so we have some really decent meals first with my boss here in Taiwan then with my closer colleagues (basically all younger ppl) hahahha.. kind of really enjoy their company.. as a matter of fact, i can only say ppl in Taiwan live more happy than in Singapore.. ppl dun demand dat much.. all they want is to hav enough.. able to enjoy life and not worry so much will do.. how i wish i can like them... then again, i'm the one who always try to make life difficult for myself... so i've only myself to blame..

anyway, after a fantastic dinner (i'm really comtemplating on opening up such restaurants.. so anyone interested to invest in my business?? hehe) , we went to Lao Tuo.. one of the more popular music pub in Tainan to chill out.. but last nite was not really good since the fav singer Joe the fat boy only sang for 40mins and the rest of the singer thereafter is not worth mentioning.. so went back to hotel feeling a bit disappointed..

woke up late today.. ard 1pm.. hehehe.. then changed up and walked ard Bei Men again.. nice place to walk since i can see all the electronics stuffs as well as pretty gals.. hehehe.. anyway, was hungry then went to buy a small pizza and some chicken wings to feast back in my hotel room.. watch a movie starring Ekin Cheung and Leon Lai.. not bad.. then went online initially to rush my report.. but end up talking to my colleague, Justin's gf and friend till 11pm on yahoo messenger.. come to think of it, Taiwanese gals r really more friendly than our hometown gals.. and they also more happy-go-lucky and simple in life.... so actually really enjoy going out with them.. at least feel younger after.. hahah.. having so much problems at times at home, probably being away for a while helps.. i will really miss my friends here in Taiwan once i go back.. then again, i was juz told by my superior in Taiwan to stay for another 3mths.. so never noe.. nothing is confirm for now.. so let's juz see how it goes.. then again, i dun mind coming back since i get better treatment in Taiwan than back home in any sense.. at least stay out of my own problems.. sigh.. will still stay in my hotel room tml to rush report unless got ppl ask me out.. hehehe.. so hav a nice weekend guys.. cheers..

2004-10-02T10:44:00.000-07:00

At Lao Tuo in Tainan... nice place to chill out.. and with my colleagues and friends

disastrous mooncake festival....

2004-09-28T09:44:00.000-07:00

sigh.. juz came back from Tai Zhong.. had a rather tiring mooncake festival.. worst was it actually quite disastrous.. to start with, i finished work ard 10pm the nite before and was drag out from the fab by my supervisor(in singapore) who came to Taiwan to visit his family. he wanted us to join him for mooncake festival at his hometown. they actually have the habit in Taiwan to have BBQ during this festive season. actually, we told him we will try to drop by if we r free, but he came personally to pick us up after a 2hrs drive fr his hometown.. can i say no then??!! so was left with no choice, and with another young colleague of mine, we went along with him back to his place..

to put it in a way.. taiwanese ppl live really simple.. and they basically r more toward basic needs.. the house we stay over was really kind of old and messy.. haha.. then again, 2mths back, it was flooded on the 1st storey of the house as it was located near the river on countryside.. so nothing much to really expect.. juz hit the bed then next moment as i was really dead tired by then... the next morning we woke up, we had our breakfast and next moment was suggested by my supervisor to go up the mountain nearby to a place called Lavender Cottage. hmmm .. tot it's quite a nice idea till he said we take motorbike up... well, well.. never ride a bike on my own before as i've no license for motobike!!! so i sat on my supervisor bike while the other colleague of mine took the other bike.. so the story starts here......

the younger colleague of mine was equally inexperienced in bikes.. we only done bicycles.. not motorbilkes!! but in taiwan, it's a norm for ppl young and old, male and female to noe how to ride a motorbike.. in actual fact, it's very simple to ride since it's automatic.. but saying is much easier than doing it.. my colleauge got went straight into the fence after our second corner out of the house... shit!! it's a loud BANG!!! damn.. luckily he was ok and he insisted he's fine after and so we went on.. this comes the ultimate one, we reached the base of the mountain.. and the road starts to get really bumpy.. to put an inexperienced guy like my colleague on the road is already a mistake.. not to say mountain road.. so we went into an accident again.. BANG!! he went into a pile of mud after hitting a rock.. damn.. it's really bad.. this time the bike is mildly damaged.. so my supervisor suggested i take the bike alone and he will ride the other bike with my colleague instead!! i was like HUH??!! so damn, i got no choice but took over the bike.. the next moment i noe, i tried to make a U-turn to look for them as they seems missing.. being completely ignorant of the handling, i accidentally turn too much on the accelerator and went abt a spin and nearly went down the mountain!! torn my jeans as a result (DAMN.. my second one in 3 weeks!! i was like more heart-pain abt my jeans than my injury.. damn bloody vain) and scratches my ankle and hand. damn.. i was like holding on to my life then.. really can't imagine the consequences.. really start to regret..

but hav to go on after that since we r already there.. i was like thinking i was actually going to be dead just moments back.. damn.. riding is really not my forte not to talk abt doing it first time in such a condition.. shit!... finally reached the destination but nothing much really.. juz had lunch there and came back down again.. this time really with a lot of fears.. juz keep praying due to the downslopes.. was braking so very often that the cars behind me keep overtaking me.. dun give a damn liao as i juz wan tot reach back home in a piece.. finally reach back to my supervisor's place and i swear I WILL NEVER RIDE A BIKE again... it's damn fxxxxxx dangerous!! my dad passed away due to it and i will not want to end up in the same way.. it's really out of no choice this time.. sigh..

then later, we had BBQ .. was really a sumptuous one.. but i guess too much of BBQ kills too as i started to feel bloated very soon.. so stop after an hour and went for my first fire crackers experience.. my supervisor bought quite a lot for us to play with.. so we went to the river side and fire off quite a lot.. one even went to the car pouch opposite the river.. damn.. got complained and we juz ran off... hahahah.. but it was really fun. like those kampung days... at least i've done it once in my life.. guess singaporeans r too restricted in certain way.. but i still believe to be safe is good.. so i will not suggest to hav such things in Singapore.. hahaha.. there's was actually a lot of ppl at the BBQ and i start to miss home by then.. i really have the sense of loneliness .. and with somethings happened the nite before at home, i started to feel sad abt myself.. but dun want to bring up for now..

thereafter, we took a tour bus .. nearly 2.5hrs back to Tainan .. reached ard midnite.. so dats my encounter for today.. quite an unforgettable day.. but juz feel lucky that i got my life in one piece.. then again, maybe i'm better off dead.. dun hav to worry abt so much things.. starts to lose faith in life actually.. hope i will feel better slowly.. really hope so... going to hit the bed now.. going to fight another battle tml..

boring sunday...

2004-09-26T09:48:00.000-07:00

Well, it's another lazy sunday.. wat did i do today?? hmm.. take it dat way, i've worked till almost midnite the nite before.. so woke up ard noon and next thing i noe, i dun want to work today!!! so woke up, do a quick washup and walk out of my hotel room and into the streets of Tainan. well.. dun noe where to go.. so took a cab to a place called Xiao Bei (little north). walked ard aimlessly and saw a hair saloon.. looks high class... tot heck, i need a haircut.. so went in.. but then do i noe it looked strange after a while then was led into a room with a really comfy full size chair.. with no saloon kind of things.. hehehhe.. shit, i went into wrong saloon liao..

a lady came by and asked me any gals i noe.. i say no.. wah.. really sounds kinky now.. so wats next?? a lady came in to do massage only lah!!! hahahaha.. nothing else.. purely massage.. then again, after 5weeks in Taiwan, i need a good massage.. so spend nearly $50 to be massage for 2 full hrs.. came out aching.. hahaha.. next, tot that i still did not hav a haircut, so was walking back to my hotel and saw a trendy saloon.. really decent one now.. so went in..

initially only wanted a hair cut.. but got pressurized by the hair stylist to dye my hair.. sian.. so dun want to be pester by them with all their Mandarins.. so juz say yes and noe wat??!! spent 3 full hours in that damn saloon getting full treatments on my head!!! damn.. first time spent so much time on my head and even my mum dun spend so much time cutting my head .. at most 1 hr.. so get to do the most ridiculous thing in my life and dats to do my hair for 3hrs.. sheesh.. really nonsensce.. then again.. after the haircut, got even more ultimate one.. spend $120 on the whole treatment!! damn.. dats my whole yr haircut expenses and in one session all gone down the drain.. rather there goes my saturday OT pay.. shit... wat the hell am i doing??!!

being alone in a foreign country sucks!! least to say nothing else to do and juz spend money.. think i will stay in my hotel room next weekend, else i will wasting my hard-earned money.. had my dinner at my hotel.. free dinner since i've staying for more than a month now.. it's a buffet dinner with all the fantastic international cusines.. but eating alone again sucks.. ppl r eating with friends, wife, gf, and family while i'm alone in the center of the dinning hall reading my newspaper and eating alone.. hahaha.. really wierd .. dun care less lah.. juz hopeless with life in Taiwan now.. juz want to finish my jobn here and go back home.. cannot stand here anymore.. pls let the time flies here god.. i beg u.. going to sleep now.. sian...

Bored with life in Taiwan...

2004-09-25T10:44:00.000-07:00

Hi guys..

my first blog in life.. never tot i will write a blog.. but then again, juz too bored with life and need a channel to vent out.. i guess when i can't find anyone to chat online.. this is the next best way..

it's 1am now in Taiwan and i'm alone in hotel room dun noe wat to do with my life.. hav being here in Taiwan for more than a month now and at least another 3 more weeks to go.. shit..!!! really bored with life here.. maybe it's more myself.. juz imagined my taiwanese colleague asked me to go to his family house in Nan Tou and go theme park next day but i rejected his offer and spent my miserable saturday working till almost midnite!!

guess i must be simply crazy or hell, dun noe how to describe myself.. juz found myself to be damn miserable human form.. being working like a robot since i left Navy.. being in my second job after i left navy, life has not really improve or rather becoming worst.. i've hav the feeling that i'm becoming more like a workaholic which i've always tried to deny.. but after wat hav happened today, yes, i'm a WORKAHOLIC!!! damn.. when did i become such a person??!! i myself dun noe.. maybe i'm juz escaping fr life.. always trying to work and submerged myself in a pile of works and not care abt life outside of my work.. maybe i'm really a failure in life.. maybe not.. i really dun noe.. all i noe is to do well in my job now.. but wat do i get in return??

everyday i've been waking up like a zombie.. wash up in my hotel room within 10mins and i'm off to work again .. everyday i reached back to my room not earlier than 10pm.. 3 days ago i even reached my hotel at 5am!! wat have happened??!! god noes.. juz dun feel like doing anything.. even going out to sightseeing in a foreign land no longer seems interesting or appealing to me now.. not interested in anything other than my bed in hotel once i hit back or my work in the day time...sigh.

few days back heard of an ex-colleague of mine at Codar passed away due to heart-attack.. he always had a health problems.. but knowing that he passed away all of a sudden really sadden me.. the worst is that i'm overseas and unable to go to his wakes.. damn.. really feel my social life falling apart with my working attitude... i start to reflect on my life and maybe i shld take life easier fr now.. and treasure my family and friends more fr now on.. i've been missing out a lot on u guys and really felt guilty..hope to catch up one of these days once i'm back fr Taiwan.. really need a change in life.. time to take a little seat back in life.. really hav to.. going to sleep now.. still hav to rush report on Sunday.. sigh.. dats my life for now.. but not for long i hope.. cheers guys... and good nite...
regards and lots of love..Peitong